जिंदगी की सीमाये

उस वक़्त मै बाहरवी की परीक्षा के बाद उदयपुर मे RPET के लिए crash course कर रहा था। वहा पर एक टीचर थे जो हमे गणित पढ़ाते थे। एक दिन बातों ही बातों मे वो इंजीन्यरिंग की पढ़ाई के बारे मे बताने लगे। फ़र्स्ट इयर मे लगता है की चीफ़ इंजीनियर बनेगे, सेकंड इयर मे लगता है की असिस्टेंट इंजीनियर बनेगे, थर्ड इयर आते आते सच्चाई का अंदेशा होने लगता है लेकिन फिर भी लगता है जूनियर इंजीनियर तो बन ही जाएगे, फ़ाइनल इयर मे आकर जब कूए से बाहर झाकते है तो यह डर लगने लगता है की कही पर जॉब भी लगेगी या नहीं। अपनी बात को पूरा करते हुए उनके चेहरे पर निराशा और हार के भाव साफ दिखाई दे रहे थे। वो फिर से पढ़ने लग गए, निश्चित रूप से वो मजबूरी मे ही पढा रहे थे।

लगभग 4-5 साल बाद GATE की तैयारी शुरू करने से लेकर रिज़ल्ट तक, मेरे साथ वही सब हुआ। शुरुवात मे लग रहा था की आईआईटी से कम मे एड्मिशन नहीं लूगा, फिर exam देने के बाद NIT से कम नहीं और रिज़ल्ट आने के बाद “कोई भी अच्छा कॉलेज मिल जाए तो सही रहेगा”। मैंने थोड़ी मेहनत तो जरूर की थी लेकिन फिर भी वह सब नहीं हुए जो मै चाहता था और आखिरकार मुझे भी परिस्थितियो के आगे आत्मसमर्पण करना ही पड़ा।

 मंदिरो, पीर, मज़ारों पर मन्नत मांगते लोगो को देखकर यही लगता है की जिंदगी मे बहुत कुछ है जो अभी भी इंसान के बस मे नहीं है। इंसान की ज़िंदगी को कोई ओर है जो चला रहा है। हम तो सिर्फ कठपुतली है जिसे एक अदृश्य सी डोर नियंत्रित कर रही है जिसे कुछ लोग किस्मत कहते है। या फिर उस बादल की तरह जिसकी किस्मत हवा का रुख तय करती है। तो क्या जिंदगी की कुछ सीमाए है जिनसे बाहर इंसान कुछ नहीं कर सकता है, अपने आप को किस्मत के भरोसे छोड़ने के अलावा। अगर लोगो द्वारा मांगे जाने वाली मन्नतों पर गौर किया जाए तो वो सिर्फ खुद या आसपास के लोगो की खुशी से संबन्धित होती है। अक्सर उम्मीदों के पूरा ना होने पर, इंसान को जिंदगी की सीमाओ का अहसास होता है। जिंदगी की सीमाये, उम्मीदों और वास्तविकताओ के बीच का अंतर मात्र है। उम्मीदो की सीमा का कभी अंत नहीं होता, उम्मीदों के पूरा होने पर वो ओर बढ़ती जाती है। जबकि वास्तविकता देखने के नजरिये पर निर्भर करती है।

 लेकिन क्या होगा अगर इंसान उम्मीदे करना ही बंद कर दे तो फिर उसकी जिंदगी की कोई सीमा नज़र ही नहीं आएगी या उसका एहसास नहीं होगा। गीता मे भी भगवान श्रीक़ृष्ण ने ऐसा ही कुछ कहा है -

 सुखदुखे समे कृत्वा लाभालाभौ जयाजयौ।
 ततो युद्धाय युज्यस्व नैवे पापम्वाप्स्यसी। ।

 [ तुम सुख या दुख, हानि या लाभ, विजय या पराजय का विचार किया बिना युद्ध(कर्म) करने के लिए युद्ध(कर्म) करो। ऐसा करने पर तुम्हें पाप नहीं लगेगा। ]

      

Newton's Law of Human Nature

Isaac Newton

Curiosity of man led to the several scientific discoveries, theorems and rules. Some spiritual people believe that only god is responsible for all things while some people believe only in science. Remaining believe that one day both kind of people (mentioned in previous line) will come to same conclusion. These kinds of people generally find the relation between science and religion. Oskar Grunewald’s book Science and religion: Missing link describes the relation between science and religion; and also describes what we are missing to understand between them.

In 1687, Isaac Newton gave famous three laws of Motion in first edition of his book Principia Mathematica Philosophiae Naturalis (Latin for Mathematical Principles of Natural Philosophy)  often referred as Principia. Unlike Aristotle’s laws, these laws are universal and applicable on falling stone to a planet. I thought if these laws are universal than why these are confine to Physics only and than in eureka moment I found that Newton’s law are also applicable on human nature….but how? Here it is..

Newton’s first Law:

 “Man/woman doing certain action or no action will do same unless there is any external obligation or inspiration.”

(Before the declaration of examination time table, most of students never start their studies. Sleeping, facebook, movies and all other things like this were their priority. But obligation to pass examinations changes their actions and they start to study. People don’t get up early in the morning until there is obligation to go school, college, office etc. People who got inspiration from book, story or person also try to change their action. People won’t change themselves easily; any obligation or inspiration is always required. )

Newton’s second law:

“Internal (f)orce to achieve something is equal to product of (m)ind’s ability and (a)cceleration of related thoughts in mind i.e. F=ma”

Newton’s third law:

“For every action a man/woman does for another person, there is equal and opposite expectation.”

इंतज़ार-ऐ-भगतसिंह

उन्हे शिकायत है अपने कॉलेज से जो की सही वक़्त पर परीक्षा परिणाम तक नहीं दे सकता। दूसरे कॉलेजो के दोस्तो को कंपनियो के ऑफर लेटरो के साथ अक्कड़ बक्कड़ खेलते हुए देख रहा है वो लेकिन खुद एक ऑफर लेटर के लिए रो रहा है। दिन मे कई बार अपने Resume को देख कर उसमे कमिया खोज रहा है। ऐसी क्या कमी है मुझमे और मेरे दूसरे प्लेस्ड दोस्तो मे, सिर्फ कॉलेज का नाम ही तो अलग है। लेकिन उसमे मेरी क्या गलती है, मैंने तो पूरी मेहनत की थी अपने कॉलेज मे, यहा तक की ज्यादा ही की थी। क्या क्या सपने देखे थे, लेकिन यहा तो रिज़ल्ट ही नहीं है अब तक हाथ मे। मन तो उसका करता है की कल की पहली ट्रेन से कॉलेज पहुच कर, रिज़ल्ट लेकर ही वापस लौटे। कम से कम एक ई-मेल तो ऐसा कर दे, जिसमे पूछ ले वो सब, जो मन मे है उसके, या फिर फोन करके ही पूछ ले। लेकिन कभी उसकी हिम्मत नहीं होती। डर लगता है उसे, जब दूसरे चुप है तो मै क्यो बोलू। मै क्यो बनू बलि का बकरा, सबका काम तो हो जाएगा और मै मारा जाऊगा। वो नहीं चाहता की उसके ग्रेड कम हो और सर से रिलेशन खराब हो। कभी कभी मन ही मन मे वो बहुत कुछ प्लान करता है लेकिन सुबह उठकर सोचता है की कुछ दिन बाद करता हूँ, हो सकता है की तब तक सब कुछ ठीक हो जाये। और फिर कुछ दिन बाद वो पुराना प्लान भूल जाता है। वो फिर से नया प्लान बनाता है। अपने दोस्तो के सामने शेर सा दहाड़ता कर अपना गुस्सा शांत करता है और जब बोलने की बारी आती है तो बनावटी मुस्कान के साथ ज्यादा कुछ बोलता नहीं है।

ये उसके साथ पहली बार नहीं हुआ है, पिछली बार रोड मे गढ़ढ़े देखकर भी उसका मन हुआ था की कम से कम शिकायत तो ही कर दे। लेकिन बाद का सोच कर उसने अपने आप को टाल दिया था उस दिन। कई बार सरकारी हॉस्पिटल मे गंदगी देखकर भी, एक बार भी शिकायत नहीं करता है वो क्योकि उसे डर है रिलेशन खराब होने का और उसे तो पहले से पता है की कुछ नहीं होने वाला। कोशिश करके भी क्या फायदा। वो हमेशा फायदा और नुकसान के तराजू मे बैठकर कर खुद को तोलता है। हालाकी सरकारी नौकरी का विज्ञापन देखकर वो एक बार कोशिश जरूर करता है, जबकि उसे पता है की आरक्षण की आग मे उसका आवेदन-पत्र जल जाएगा। लेकिन फिर भी वो सोचता है की एक बार कोशिश करने मे क्या हर्ज़ है।

वो चुपचाप सब कुछ देख रहा है।

उसको इंतज़ार है एक भगतसिंह का,

जो आएगा और नयी शुरुवात करेगा

जो आयेगा और अपना बलिदान देगा,

और

जिसकी चिता की राख़ को दिखाकर,

वो अपना हक़ मागेगा।

क्या आपको भी है इंतज़ार–ए-भगतसिंह...?

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LIFE IS ETERNAL SEARCH OF FREEDOM

When I was a child, I used to think about the luxuries and comfort of elder people. I used to think especially during examination time that they don’t have to give any examinations and they can sleep whenever they want and they can watch television according to their wish. Sometime my mother read my thoughts and said, “There was a time when I also need to gave examinations but I performed well and that’s why now I am free from examinations. You will also have same comfort once you will pass all your examinations.” But as a child I always wonder why not now? Why later? But I showed them I agreed with her. But in mind, I always had doubt. During that time I wanted to become free from examinations and studies so that I could play with friends all day, watch television etc. I often felt jealously with friends who had finished their examinations while my examinations were still remains to complete.

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Many people may have same feeling during their childhood as I felt during my childhood about which I mentioned above. But even after getting free from that situation of childhood, are we really free? After completing studies, unemployed wants a job, those who have job want to get better job, those who have better job want to become a manager, those who are manager want to get much higher level managerial responsibilities. People think that they will enjoy more happiness by getting freedom from current state and that’s why they always dream of next higher level. Freedom is processes to get rid of things on which you are depend; it can be stated as process to remove those decencies. Street vendors think of their own shop so that they don’t need to go from one street to another in order to sell their goods. A shopkeeper think of bigger shop so that he/she can hire servants so that he/she don’t need to bring required good from the place it is placed in shop to counter. And so on.

Everybody wants to free from certain things in life in order to fulfill the desire to live a better life. This quest of complete freedom leads human race from Stone Age to current scientific era. But will this quest ever end? I think no. We cannot remove all our dependency. Because getting freedom from one thing makes us to depend on another new thing. Freedom from letters to communicate makes us depend on mobile phones.

We are like that thirst traveler in desert who thought by seeing a mirage that “ultimately I got water” but when traveler reach that place he/she find one more mirage and this same cycle repeated until he/she die. People are searching from complete freedom but nobody can find that like the thirsty traveler could not find water. Life is an eternal search of freedom.

Look into yourself, you will find you are already free. 

Indore diary [7] : Robot was my life (Part 3)

We went to Bhopal and from there we boarded on a train for Nagpur. From Nagpur we boarded a train for Kharagpur , Durg was one of the intermediate station. At Durg station we got chance to meet mother, brother and some friends of Bhupendra. Her mother brought lunch for us. We enjoyed homemade food while travelling. Food was delicious especially Gajar ka Halwa and one could not expect such kind of lunch while travelling. Travelling with friends is always a wonderful experience. We enjoyed our train journey to Kharagpur.  

In early morning of 27 Jan,2012, we reached at Kharagpur. We hired an auto ricksaw and we finally reached our destination i.e. IIT Khragpur. There we could see so many people like us. Hoardings and posters were around every corner. After registration, we came to know that first round of our competition will be in afternoon around 2 PM. So we had chance and time to improve our robots and also we really needed that. Because we didn’t know whether the slave robot would run or still behave like confused child. There was place for parking at ground floor and at that time that place was looking like workshop. Participants of various robotic competitions were engaged with their robots. We got chance to see various type of robots and how same idea can be implemented in various creative ways. We also found place for ourselves. 

We arrange our setup there. Then we encountered our first problem of the day, we found that we were unable to reprogram microcontroller used in master robot. We look for every possible reason but all was vain. We got stuck in a problem about which we never thought of. Suddenly we found that a wire lose its contact although it was looking fine. So finally we were able to reprogram microcontroller. But the main problem related to slave robot was still challenging us. We tried to use wireless communication between master and slave robot. We tried so much time but the results were much below the required result. Finally we surrender and decided to use wired communication (allowed in competition). We thought this would definitely work fine. But the results were much below the expectations. Now the only option was to try to improve the performance.

Meanwhile, the watch indicates that the time of first round was near. But due to some reason the some delay of two hours was announced there. Now we had some more time to try our luck. Competitions started at scheduled time. But it was already 4-5 PM of evening. Time was passing with every minute. We were still trying and there was not much improvement. Evening passed and sun went his home with promise to come in morning. Time was passing with every second. We got to know that our turn may at 11 at night. We were still messing with robots. At 10-10.30, we came to know that our turn may come at 12. At 11.30, we requested to shift our turn further after few more participants. We wanted to try our best. Around 3-4 AM in morning, our robots got chance to show their abilities. It was near to okay. After competition, we slept at same place where we were trying our luck with robots, we were so much tired and we didn’t have energy to go room that was allotted to us.

3D street painting

Next morning, results were not in our favors. We failed to qualify for second round. Now we had time to attend lecture, demos and various competitions. We also visited kharagpur town. We attended fire and dance show along with lectures by Naseeruddin Shah and Prabhu Chawla.

Although we failed to win the competition but at least we tried and at least I can say that once “Robot was my life.”